It’s so tiring to always live on the edge.

To not know if i have a future or not.

To wonder, worry and have anxiety all the time.

I’m lonely, i’m very very lonely and i’m scared.

I could snap any second and hurt myself, or even worse, kill myself, it’s so scary. I don’t know how i’m supposed to survive this week. All i can do is wait and try to survive, take my medicines and not let my hope die again, cause that’s when things can get really dangerous.